Sitting at the Table (Blog to Learn, Day 1)

I've decided that self-reflection is no longer an option, but an obligation. Part of the problem with maintaining a blog--any blog, but especially one concerning self-improvement--is making the effort to "sit at the table." It requires a certain disregard for the ego. All things considering, it occasionally feels ridiculous and selfish to be spending so much time and effort in contemplating my own motivations and actions. That said, the only way to change the world is to affect change in oneself.

I have stagnated lately, slowed down by the same things that slow everyone: fear, anger, too much background noise.... It is in times like these that the need to live authentically becomes so much more apparent. I should be dancing. I need to let go.

I have a lot of work to do, and I can't decide where to start. So, here I am, sitting at the table. If nothing else, I can start right where I am. I am making a commitment to sit here and blog at least once per day, through the end of the month, until it becomes habitual. I am less concerned with formatting each entry and perfecting the language I use here, and more concerned with the actual act of writing. I find myself trying to plan already, but I wonder if this might be counterproductive. I'm hoping that some organic process will develop. We'll see.