Cheating Myself or Learning to Relax? (Blog to Learn, Day 10)

I am finally awake when it would be most useful to me, but at the cost of productivity, yesterday. I suppose that I should start a bit earlier. While I was driving to work, I started asking myself how my morning routine could be more efficient...looking for flaws in the current system. Two things came to mind that are of any consequence: 1) limiting my blogging time, and 2) getting a decent night's sleep, so that I am capable of waking up with my alarm. Case in point, I am running a timer right now, as I type, and I fell asleep/passed out on the couch last night, shortly after dinner. I clearly needed the sleep, but I woke up a bit bitter for not accomplishing any of the tasks on yesterday's list. Today, I am off to a much better start...we shall see....

I turned rebellious again yesterday. Lacking the energy or motivation to complete non-critical work tasks, I ended up using my planning period to read and get lunch from the grocery store next to the school. Whether that time was wasted or used in the best possible way remains to be seen, but I certainly feel a bit useless. I just gave up/gave in yesterday. I'd like to think that it was a test run of what giving up/in does...I certainly considered it when I opted to read at lunch. That said, I watched an extra hour of television, bought my dinner, had both wine and ice cream, and fell asleep on the couch. I actually think that this could be a positive thing, but just not every day. I like the idea of taking one day a week to be self-indulgent/cheat/relax, but I'm going to have to be careful not to extend those "cheat days" beyond the once-a-week boundaries that should contain them. That means that I need to exercise some advance planning, and suck it up when the urge to avoid responsibility comes calling on the other days.

On the plus side, I had phenomenal and strange dreams, last night, and I am 45 minutes ahead of yesterday morning. I just need to push through the end of this week. After all, spring break is just around the corner.