Pledge to Be Awesome (Blog to Learn, Day 12)

I would give anything to start all over again. It has been two days worth of my "break," and I ache to burn bridges. I'm fairly certain that--despite sleeping downstairs for the last two nights--my roommate's girlfriend has hacked and coughed her way into making me genuinely ill. I read an email this morning that was sent four days late, but which put our school's budget shortfall into hard numbers. We're losing $600,000, which amounts to about 6-8 full-time teachers. Our money has already been frozen this year, so all of my music purchases have been out of pocket, and every department than can has moved in on the music department's successful Friday pizza-sale fundraiser. Ugh. On my first day of break, I usually like to be a lazy bum, but I spent too much of it angry at everything, including myself.

I'm tired of being awash in and surrounded by mediocrity, and I'm starting to think that it is my job to be awesome, for everyone's sake. I see what kind of power it can have; all it took yesterday was for my boyfriend to text me with a reminder about Tarkovsky films to remind me that not everyone makes me sad for humanity. I don't think I have time for anything but awesome things, and neither should anyone else.